1. Of the nature or quality of an unguent or ointment; fatty; oily; greasy.
2. Having a smooth, greasy feel, as certain minerals.
3. Insincerely or excessively suave or ingratiating in manner or speech; marked by a false or smug earnestness or agreeableness.
HAWMC Day 2 , take the word of the day from dictionary.com and relate it to your condition. Imagine my excitement when I saw the word and definition for unctuous. See I am being unctuous already or maybe just sarcastic. I am still trying to understand the definition. So bear with me as I stretch the definition a little...
Since Julia was diagnosed, I have changed. I am not the same person I used to be. I am not the same friend I used to be. Those who know me well, know that although I did not always keep in touch, I was always there. Some how I have gotten even worse about keeping in touch. And although I am there now, as often as I can be, I always have nagging thoughts in the back of my head.
Where is Julia?
What is her number?
Is she okay?
Does she need anything?
What if something is wrong?
So if I ever seem like I am insincere, or that I am not giving you my full attention, I apologize. If I am being falsely agreeable, it is not my intention. I want to be the old me and I am working on bringing her back. I will not let diabetes define Julia and it will not define me either. Please bear with me and please stay with me. I am getting better and when it is really bad, let me know that I am being unctuous.
It is hard "finding" yourself after the diagnosis. It took me a couple of years. I can really relate to this post. Unctuous-ness and all!
ReplyDeleteI still feel lost because of diabetes. I think all us D-Mamas can relate.
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